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the media I cherish at a glance

your understanding of me is incomplete without these

"You may have noticed that the books you really love are bound together by a secret thread. You know very well what is the common quality that makes you love them, though you cannot put it into words: but most of your friends do not see it at all, and often wonder why, liking this, you should also like that. Again, you have stood before some landscape, which seems to embody what you have been looking for all your life; and then turned to the friend at your side who appears to be seeing what you saw -- but at the first words a gulf yawns between you, and you realise that this landscape means something totally different to him, that he is pursuing an alien vision and cares nothing for the ineffable suggestion by which you are transported. Even in your hobbies, has there not always been some secret attraction which the others are curiously ignorant of -- something, not to be identified with, but always on the verge of breaking through, the smell of cut wood in the workshop or the clap-clap of water against the boat's side? Are not all lifelong friendships born at the moment when at last you meet another human being who has some inkling (but faint and uncertain even in the best) of that something which you were born desiring, and which, beneath the flux of other desires and in all the momentary silences between the louder passions, night and day, year by year, from childhood to old age, you are looking for, watching for, listening for? You have never had it. All the things that have ever deeply possessed your soul have been but hints of it -- tantalising glimpses, promises never quite fulfilled, echoes that died away just as they caught your ear. But if it should really become manifest -- if there ever came an echo that did not die away but swelled into the sound itself -- you would know it. Beyond all possibility of doubt you would say 'Here at last is the thing I was made for'. We cannot tell each other about it. It is the secret signature of each soul, the incommunicable and unappeasable want, the thing we desired before we met our wives or made our friends or chose our work, and which we shall still desire on our deathbeds, when the mind no longer knows wife or friend or work. While we are, this is. If we lose this, we lose all."

--C.S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain
*okay, so I didn't know this was actually from an aggressively pro-christianity book.
you should know I don't #fuck with that in the least, but I do like this quote a lot.

letterboxd top 4

aloners (2021)

nope (2022)

challengers (2024)

happyend (2024)

other beloved movies

dead talents society (2024)

problemista (2023)

falling in love like in movies (2023)

night is short, walk on girl (2017)

love in the big city (2024)

revue starlight: the movie (2021)

the banshees of inisherin (2022)

short vacation (2020)

run lola run (1998)

hotel of my dream (2024)

wings of desire (1987)

saving face (2024)

shirkers (2018)

rye lane (2023)

tokyo godfathers (2003)

the lives of others (2006)

orlando (1992)

see you soon (2025)

howl's moving castle (2004)

the dog thief (2024)

inu-oh (2021)

neo yokio: pink christmas (2018)

spirited away (2001)

everything everywhere all at once (2022)

the case of hana and alice (2015)

take care of my cat (2001)

microhabitat (2017)

the outrun (2024)

TÁR (2022)

tv!

my liberation notes (2022)

life's punchline (2021)

hacks

brush up life (2023)

scavengers reign (2023)

midnight romance in hagwon (2024)

turn to me mukai-kun (2023)

little women (2022)

she loves to cook, she loves to eat

infinity train

neo yokio (2017)

manga & manhwa I love

haikyuu

hirayasumi

skip and loafer

hell's paradise

fruits basket

witch hat atelier

captivated by you

no home

snow white with the red hair

dungeon meshi

dorohedero

dai dark

yotsuba&!

my miniature life manual

unlucky mansion

veil

land of the lustrous

shimeji simulation

play it cool, guys

daily jojo

chihayafuru

you and i are polar opposites

planetarium ghost travel

love bullet

girl meets rock

catch these hands

one room ta

anime yaaay

rilakkuma and kaoru

keep your hands off eizouken!

run with the wind

fruits basket

haikyuu

dorohedero

mob psycho 100

aggretsuko

bocchi the rock

terror in resonance

laid back camp

girls band cry

books

clear and muddy loss of love

fanservice paradox

piranesi

the city we became

the night circus

the murderbot diaries

the raven cycle

it's complicated

jujutsu kaisen

sakamoto days

all for the game

crash course in romance

persona 5 royale